Reality sets in

A project at work has turned into a monster in the corner. It's still a small monster, but it's being fed by my natural inclination to feel guilty seasoned by perfectionism-procrastination tendencies.

This monster led to a relevation. I took this job in March 2007 and had almost six months with the freedom to work long hours to get everything done. That's they way I was used to operating.

Then we went to India in mid-September. Within two weeks of arriving home I was spending a little time each day working remotely, gradually returning to full-time in mid-November. But there's no more staying late. And getting work done at home depends entirely on how much TV we let Niranjana watch that night.

Reality hit the other day, as I was contemplating this monster at work and trying to figure out how to cage it. I've spent more months on this job as a mother than I did before becoming a mother. This is how things are. My time is not going to loosen up. Something needs to change, and it's going to have to start at home. And it's going to have to start with me.....